Wedding anniversaries

February 11, 2015

I remember when Ellen and I were first married and we attended a Sunday school class together at a church near where I was stationed in the Navy. One week the teacher of our class told us that he and his wife were celebrating their 30th wedding anniversary. Honestly… I could not imagine that. 30 years! My maternal grandparents were the only model for long marriage that I was closely related to and I don’t ever remember any fuss being made over their anniversaries. I’m assuming they got married around 1920 and my grandmother died in 1967 so they had 47 years or so invested in each other. But again I have no memory of their longevity being recognized in any way.

This Sunday, February 15, 2015 at sometime after 2:30 in the afternoon Ellen and I will have been married for 40 years. 40 years; or exactly 2/3 of my life. What do I think of that? First, I recognize that it is not a unique experience. Many folks have surpassed that number by decades. And many are on their way to matching it. So I’m not boasting about anything.   But what do I think?

First of all, I guess what I’m about to say is different for different couples. At some unidentified point in a marriage you cross a line. And the line is this, “I can no longer imagine life without you. Nor do I want to.” It makes perfect sense to me now why long term couples often die within weeks or months of one another. The trauma on one’s psyche by having their lives literally torn asunder is real. It’s not that someone you love has died. It’s that part of you has died! For some the “injury” is too profound. There is nothing that can be done to heal it. And maybe nothing that should be done.

I remember that after my grandmother passed away in 1967, my grandfather was NEVER the same. Oh he hung in there, but he was never again as he had been. I recall the day I found an album of his by Bobby Goldsboro. The hit song on the album was “Honey.” (Go to if you are unfamiliar with it.) I tried to play it but the needle on the record kept sliding over that song because he had played it so many times the grooves were worn out. I wept for him.

For those who have endured 40 years… but only endured it? I weep for you also. On occasion I say to young couples “I know folks who had a wedding 10 years ago, 20 years ago, 30 years ago, but they NEVER had a marriage.” How sad is that?

And for those who never made it to 40… I’m so sorry. No matter the reason. If someone died… that’s tragic. If someone abandoned the relationship… that’s tragic. If someone was emotionally ill… that’s tragic. If someone was abusive in the relationship… that’s tragic. If they just “fell out of love,” well, that’s just lazy and probably selfish. Sorry, not too sympathetic or “understanding” on that one.

Two words then on 40 years, “Joy Unspeakable.” I have done nothing in my life to deserve the honor and blessing and love of Ellen Thompson Little. She always dismisses me when I say the following but it is absolutely true. I would NEVER have accomplished anything of significance without her. College, Seminary, Doctorate, David, Rebekah, Benjamin, Alissa, two long term pastorates… and the list goes on. Ask anyone who knew me when and they will confirm what I just said. She has encouraged me, inspired me, and believed in me when I rarely believe in myself.

I hope it’s not inappropriate for me to write these very personal things. But my intent is to inspire others who may find themselves in situations where they are unsure if they will ever make it to 40… or 5, or 10, or 20. Don’t give up! (I am not speaking to those in abusive relationships!) Hang in there! Both of you work hard. Find out what “sacrificial love” toward your spouse and children means. Husbands, do not stop courting your wives. Wives, tell your husbands how much you “appreciate” them. I can only tell you this. 40 years is worth it. It really is.

Thank you for your patience with my meanderings. I am exceedingly aware that I am a blessed man.


7 thoughts on “Wedding anniversaries

  1. Awesome. I know I feel the same about Terry after 30 yrs.

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  2. Description of a Worthy Woman

    10 An excellent wife, who can find?
    For her worth is far above jewels.
    11 The heart of her husband trusts in her,
    And he will have no lack of gain.
    12 She does him good and not evil
    All the days of her life.
    13 She looks for wool and flax
    And works with her [h]hands [i]in delight.
    14 She is like merchant ships;
    She brings her food from afar.
    15 She rises also while it is still night
    And gives food to her household
    And [j]portions to her maidens.
    16 She considers a field and buys it;
    From [k]her earnings she plants a vineyard.
    17 She girds [l]herself with strength
    And makes her arms strong.
    18 She senses that her gain is good;
    Her lamp does not go out at night.
    19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
    And her [m]hands grasp the spindle.
    20 She [n]extends her hand to the poor,
    And she stretches out her hands to the needy.
    21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household,
    For all her household are clothed with scarlet.
    22 She makes coverings for herself;
    Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
    23 Her husband is known in the gates,
    When he sits among the elders of the land.
    24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
    And [o]supplies belts to the [p]tradesmen.
    25 Strength and dignity are her clothing,
    And she smiles at the [q]future.
    26 She opens her mouth in wisdom,
    And the [r]teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
    27 She looks well to the ways of her household,
    And does not eat the bread of idleness.
    28 Her children rise up and bless her;
    Her husband also, and he praises her, saying:
    29 “Many daughters have done nobly,
    But you excel them all.”
    30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,
    But a woman who [s]fears the Lord, she shall be praised.
    31 Give her the [t]product of her hands,
    And let her works praise her in the gates.

  3. This is beautiful, Bill. I love the part especially where you listened to your grandfather’s record of “Honey” and the needle slipped over it from overuse. And your words about Ellen. Lovely.

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